1.1 The Goal

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This is the first unit in Module 1: Getting Your Mind Straight. This module is all about getting the right mindset which is the foundation for change. In psychology terms we’re going to be doing psycho-education or cognitive therapy, the first part of the Cognitive Behaviour Therapy (CBT) process. Completing this section won’t solve the problem by itself, but it’s a huge first step.

What’s your problem?

What is the problem you are facing right now? What is it, exactly? You might think that the problem is being conscious of some bodily process, but I would say that isn’t the real problem. The real problem is the anxiety you’ve associated with that consciousness. Each time you become conscious of a bodily process, certain beliefs in the subconscious are remembered, and that makes you anxious. And that anxiety is unbearable.

Take consciousness of breathing for example. When you think about it, there’s nothing inherently that makes you anxious when you are conscious of it. I’m conscious of my breathing right now for example, and I’m fine (this was something which once gave me A LOT of anxiety). And this is true of most of the population; they might consciously control their breathing for a while (say while doing meditation), and it causes them no issue at all. What’s really making you anxious are the beliefs (and stories) you’ve created around this consciousness. If you believe (even on a sub-conscious level) that ‘my quality of life will reduced while I’m conscious of breathing’ or some other negative belief, then every time you are conscious of breathing, you remember this anxiety inducing thought, and you end up being anxious!

Again, my point here is that the problem is not consciousness of bodily processes in of itself. That doesn’t cause anything, and isn’t associated with anxiety. It’s our beliefs surrounding it that are the problem. The process for most people is:

(1) Consciousness of bodily process -> (2) Negative beliefs (often subconscious) -> (3) Crippling anxiety.

 So people think that consciousness of bodily processes is the problem and try to remove it, but this doesn’t work long term. This is because it’s pointless try to distract yourself or forget about something you’re scared of. These don’t work because of the way our brains work. The more you are scared of something, the more your brain will remind you of it, and hence ironically it’ll be at the forefront of your mind. From an evolutionary perspective, if there’s a threat that you should be worried about, your brain make sure you’re away of it. For example say you saw a highly venomous spider in your bathroom; there’s no way you’ll just forget about it. Every time you walk in, you’ll be on high alert until you’re sure the spider is no longer there. Similarly the more scared we are of a particular thought or sensation, the more our brains will remind us of it.

The goal is to have no anxiety

That takes us to the goal of this program. The goal is NOT to be not conscious of our bodily processes, but rather to eliminate any anxiety associated with them. Your goal should be that you can have that consciousness right there with you, but feel no anxiety. In other words, you are completely comfortable with it being there and have no desire for it to go away. We want to decouple being conscious of the sensation with any negative beliefs and anxiety.

I often think of it as imagine there was some guy running around following all day saying “be conscious of your blinking!” or “make sure you don’t have too much saliva!”, or whatever it is. The goal would be to have no trouble with this guy; he could go on keep saying that and it wouldn’t trouble you at all. It can be very empowering to just make this shift from running away to wanting to face the sensation head on.

The way you measure success will change too. It’s not about how long you’ve gone without forgetting the sensation; that’s irrelevant. The only metric is how much anxiety you feel. The less anxiety you feel (though there’ll be ups and downs), the better you’re doing.

Funnily enough, once the anxiety goes, you will forget about being conscious of your bodily processes. That’s what happened to me; once no longer had anxiety associated with being conscious, I went long periods without ever remembering about it at all. But remember, that isn’t the goal. The goal is to eliminate anxiety associated with bodily processes, not avoid consciousness of them. Once the anxiety is gone, you’re all good.

Think about how you’ve been trying to deal with this. Have you been trying to run away from being conscious of the sensation? How have you been measuring success?

Continue to 1.2 Challenging Your Beliefs

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Andrew

I just wanted to say, reading this is so comforting. It’s even more comforting knowing someone else has forged a path toward living with this terrible form of OCD. Terrible, yet treatable. Thank you! I can’t wait to keep reading more.